Last
week in one of my psychology classes we learned about cognitive dissonance. I learned that
cognitive dissonance is a discomfort caused by holding conflicting ideas
simultaneously. According to the theory of cognitive dissonance, people have
the desire to reduce stress by changing their attitudes, beliefs, and actions.
People deal with dissonance also by justifying, blaming, and denying their
actions. As I was learning this in class
I began to think of a time in my life when this had happed to me. I
experienced cognitive dissonance when I intentionally lied to my parents about
taking an over-the-weekend school trip to Death Valley. I told my parents that it was a class trip and
we would be leaving on Saturday morning and returning Sunday night. However,
the truth was that I was going to Reno, Nevada with my boyfriend and some
friends. This was the first time in my life that I lied to my parents in such a
drastic way. Certainly, I am not saying I had never lied to them, just that
usually it was “little white lies” here and there, but never to this extreme. I
am a type of girl who deeply believes that lying is not a good thing,
especially when it comes down to lying to once own parents. I would always
criticize my girlfriends for always lying and never conceding the truth to their parents and
here I was doing the same thing they did.
The discomfort I felt after lying to
them was very unique. I knew that what I was doing was not right and if my
parents were to find out they would be very disappointed. To them I was the
example of the perfect daughter. At family parties I would hear my family’s
conversations about their children, while my aunts and uncles complained about
their sons and daughters, my parents praised about me. This made me feel proud
about my beliefs and actions. Yet, in this case my actions were clearly
inconsistent with my beliefs. I was lying to my parents. After discovering how
guilty I felt I concluded that it was my own fault. I recognized that if I had
not lied to my parents I would not feel as bad as I did. I had a choice to tell
them the truth and ask for permission, and instead I decided to take the easy
route and just lie and tell them something I knew they would not oppose of. To
make myself feel better I tried justifying my actions by making myself believe
that “if I hadn’t lied then I wouldn’t be on this trip right now.” However,
this did not work for me. I experienced extreme anxiety and distress after
lying to my parents. I felt so disappointed with myself that I remember not
even having fun that weekend. I wanted to tell my parents the truth, but felt
too scared and ashamed to confess my lie. This made me aware of the
inconsistency between my attitude and my behavior, but instead of changing my
belief I decided to change my behavior. As a result of this I never again lied
to my parents again. The feeling that I had from my behavior was something I
did not want to feel again.
Vocabulary Words
dissonance- A tension or clash resulting from the combination of two disharmonious or unsuitable elements.
conceding- Admit that something is true or valid after first denying or resisting it.